2015: A Year Of Goodbyes

When the end begins
say goodbye
to all regrets.
To the “yes
you never said.


Don’t feel bad
for mistakes
you need no longer make.
You’ve committed them all
if that’s even possible.


Adjust your sails
trim them tight
the ocean’s wide
allow its depths
to swallow
begotten sorrows.


Behold magnificence
almost in sight.


Cut all ties
to your sorry past.
If nothing more
just be glad
it didn’t last.


Ever mindful
eternally grateful
for what has passed.


Belong to no one.
Gather together
all the pieces of you.


Tattered bits
unwanted parts
scattered in the winds.
Accept and embrace
they were you.


Make whole
the holiness
that is you.


Renew
throw wide open
all the windows
leading to your heart.
Release her.


Make all your faces fit
the you
you hardly knew.


Resist the need
to rekindle ties
which no longer bind.


Make room for new loves.
Somehow
they do exist.


Create pockets of passion
allow them to blossom
in intoxicating fashion.


Conform to no one.
Compromise with nothing.


The year of goodbyes
is almost over.
Dry those tears.
Confound your fears.


Behold thy future:
Dazzling!

Who Will Write Our Story?

Wu Qiong, Artist
Art by Wu Qiong

Maybe it’s the child in me
merrily playing
with~
at love.
A silly game,
then another,
deliriously pretending
to be loved~
in love
with love.

You love me
a lot, a lot.
Or not.

Will you imagine
my fairy tale?
I see everything.
I have nothing
at all.

Is it the child in me
forever wanting
what
she cannot have?

Puella Eternis~
eternal child.
Wanting, needing,
never ending
want.

How do I dream
of coming home
to a place
I don’t belong?

What future
for life
lived
living
in the past?

And what of sorrows?
Aborted tomorrows
unmourned
unwept
unburied?

Sorry, oh so sorry, life.

How do I write
your name?
From whence
you came?

Who will sing
those songs
this heart
murmurs
in the dark?

Listen.
I hear you not.

Goodbye?
But,
you’re already gone.

Done living
done loving
done being.

Time flew
and yet
my life
was born~
of you.

Walking
under your shadow
crossroads
stopping, stumbling
waiting
a heaving sentence
pausing to wait.

But who will write our story?
Not to be read.
No.
But,
so as not
to forget:
no one
no life
is ever
for naught.

I, you,
we matter.

Time is late.
You and I
we are past
saying goodbye.

A kiss and a hug~
shelter for
the coming storm.

We have yet
to write this story.
Here, give me your hand,
I have a pen.

One River For Two

“A part of me never apart from you”

Tomebamba

River-11

Remind me again
why
exactly how much
i once
loved you.

Days…they distance.

You…so far away..

This distance
my heart’s dementia.

Me…am i losing you?

No reason
why you should
still
i wish you would
miss me too.

A part of me
never
apart from you.

Memories go
where this one river flows.

River move me
over to the other side
of tomorrow
where even sorrow
has no space
to burrow.

Toss away time.

When I’m with you
time is fickle.

Away from you
time trickles.

River remember~
tomorrow
there’ll be no time
to say:
“tomorrow, we’ll find time to make time”.

We have no time.

River carry me
bring me back
take me
any place
anywhere
in this lifetime
if you are
there
I belong.

River-10

River-2

 

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River-3

River-3

River-5

River-9

 

River-2

 

License To Live

“For you, with you, beside you~I’ll go with. Ask. Yes”

River_1507

Stop wanting
what’s possible~
the ordinary;
herd’s mentality.

Covet the unattainable.

Commit.

Conceive paradise;
life extraordinary.

Life ignores victims~
preys to foolishness;
imbeciles in waiting.

Waiting to live
wanting to love.

Empty.

Hearts ache
for universes un~chartered~
the unknown.

Unlock your  heart.

Long
for what’s
invisible
impossible
improbable
unimaginable
unthinkable.

Ignite worlds upon worlds.

Wander with soul
to places
yet to learn their names.

Where
fragile mind can’t grasp
clouded eye can’t behold
burdened body can’t entangle.

Gather together
fragments of a soul~
scattered;
once upon a time
shuttered.

Birth what has yet to be.

Die to desolation.

In despair beyond despair
lies life
lives love.

Bliss incomprehensible
joy unimaginable
rapture beyond rupture.

Heed
urgencies
claiming you.

Get lost
never to be found.

Allow this odd stranger
to hold you
in thrall.

Enthralled.

Under a spell
beyond salvation.

Live!

For you
with you
beside you
I’ll go with.

Ask.

Yes.

The Greed Of Need

The Embrace

I have no words
to tell you
how gravely
i need you.

A need so naked
it is sacred.

You consume me.

Feed the greed
fill the need.

I hunger.

Love you
take you
drink you.

A famine
of you.

I declare war.
Man your passions
unsheathe your soul.

The bedroom~
our battlefield.
Kisses and caresses~
our weapons of choice.
Two aching bodies~
ferocious combatants
yearning for collision.

No harm can come to you.
Yield to me.

Murmurs of madness
take me
make me
break me
set me free.

Ecstasy
embracing eternity.

One night.

Tonight.

Enough.

Dignity For The Damned

May 13, 2015 Feast Of Our Lady Of Fatima. For MMZ, HIV positive.

Wheeling Me Home

You kneel broken
weeping tears
too copious
deserts turn to rivers.
A waterfall of sorrows
even tomorrow
cannot contain.

Body bent
spirit spent
Unable to hide
wounds
gaping wide
pus pouring out.

People shun you.
Each stare
a dagger to the heart.

What heart?
you ask
it is shattered
only memories
breathe for life.

Mercy
you scream
have pity
you plead
to gods known
now
even those unknown.

Silence.

For the damned
there is no religion.

Only kindness
will suffice.
Compassion is clemency~
unearned pardon
for a shallow life
lived in shadows.

You sit silently
ears numb
to the beating of life
no longer yours.

Hope abounds
for the living
but not for you.
You are almost gone.

The night remains
your only friend.
Steadfast and true
enfolding you.

Bid goodbye
to the light~
to a life
slowly fading fast.

The end
will be easy.
Eternity awaits you
arms open wide~
a warm welcome
this cold world
withholds
from the forever damned.

Close your eyes,
dear child.

Hush.

I am holding you so tightly.

 It’s time to go home now.